Psalm56:8 You've kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, Each tear entered in your ledger, each ache written in your book.

This is quite a statement, especially if you’ve had a year like I have had.  It’s quite a feat to be able to keep track of EVERY toss and turn, there have been many in just as many sleepless nights.  To keep record of EVERY tear would fill volumes.  And the aches… Lord, do you really write about all of my aches?  Who even knows about them but you God?  And you take the time and the care to write them down?  That is so validating.

I am reminded that when I feel lonely, I am not alone.  Not only is God with me during those times, he actually can recall them at any given time.  He even has a record of them all, so he and I can discuss those times, and accurately see how we worked through them.  That is so encouraging to me, the queen of rehash and discuss. 

Lord, first of all, THANK YOU for being with me in my darkest, most private times of sleeplessness, tears and aches.  Thank you for recording them.  Thank you for validating them.  And thank you for making allowances for what some have told me is one of my biggest weaknesses, the need to talk about things.  You know this about me, and you’re up for it anytime, because hey, you’ve kept track.  You can keep up with me.  That is so awesome!